a Bit about Me
25.2.05
I sit on the floor
Outside my window there's a steel wall sky
Migraine's calling and dropping by
all I am is wondering
I don't know myself
can recite history for anyone
can make your machine beautiful
can clean to avoid life
clinging to everyone else's ideals
don't know what I wanted for me
lost my eye site to patriarchy
took a detour downtown
lived my parent's life
walked in on myself
and was so surprised to find
I lived here
I survived
there's no winning the knife fights
just degrees of bleeding to be
have my scars
my body is a temple carrying tattooed reliefs
I can't tell you anything
that's the secret to fortune telling
yo already know
walked away from me once
and I let myself go
I have to be my own star
there is no one else who
can read me or see me or make this whole
sense of being completed
human mysteries
and I am a secret
armed with unicode lies and lifelines
just try
one more breath
just try
to reach for
dark
star
hollow
burning
infantalized
and even now
I am secret
seeking to be known
bringing down the world
destroying every last dream
eating hope
for fuel
come and see the destruction
lend a hand
there is no desecration
if the intent is accepted
rebuild
take the pieces left over
take the offered hand
take more than anyone
and build the new me
posted by Ambrrrr
